This morning, I ran the most Epic 2.4km. 

ONE beehim running alongside me, in her school uniform, clapping her hands wildly and shouting my name and telling me to think about happy things. "FOOD! LUNCH! SUSHIII" "CONFESSIONS OF A SHOPAHOLIC, ESTELLA!" 

Gill Avril and Bush running back and forth and across the field to key junctures, waving their hands madly and jumping about going "RUUUUN BABY RUUUUUUN". Gill teaching me how to tighten shoelaces before and them rehearsing their cheers, finding songs with the word "run" to add to the Playlist... SKIPPING BREAK FOR ME

...Amanda Grace and Samarth who got me through the last 80metres as I was all ready to drop dead. The whole time all I could do was smile and the run became one thousand times less painful...... one thousand times better bcos it just didn't feel like I was the only one running. It was OUR race!!

TO MY MOST AWESOME FRIENDS, seriously touched, you guys you make me happy!!!!!! LOVE YOU 4 LYFE :) :) 

Life Lesson #3

ESTELLA IS ALL ABOUT THE WRIST MOVEMENT.

cosy in the rocket

Awakeningz. I refuse to grow up. There is one tiny knot in my heart. Tomorrow, more revelations. In a flash I am caught somewhat off guard but in Faith I am certainly most certain. You may look back someday I won't. Perspectiv. Shimmy sparkle. In every soul there lies. Kakiage double blow! Godiva drops. And lastly something kkool "really, God, really?" "yes, you". In the chaos, in confusion, I know You're sovereign still.

Oh I'd rather go and journey where the diamond crest is flowing and
Run across the valley beneath the sacred mountain and
Wander through the forest
Where the trees have leaves of prisms and break the light in colors
That no one knows the names of

hand me down

Hi I am grappling
I am unable to come to terms with this concept of Ageing. As much as I wish this wasn't true- I hate change. I hate that my grandmother turned 69 yesterday. She is Sixty-Nine. I hate that Yaya might be leaving us at the end of this year. It was yesterday when I was six, Deanna was four and we sang along to Brother Louie and Disco-danced. I hate that I don't journal anymore. I am no longer the fearless girl in surfshorts and gold-rimmed glasses. My hideous Jurassic Park bagpack with the flashing straplights I used to carry everywhere. What constants? I hate that time is flickering by. Am I Living. AM I LIVING. In every sense of the word

dyed in the wool

Fleet foxes and Mogwai shall get me through this sad, sad weekend. As we mourn the passing of the March holidays OH, and Sushi too!!! SUSHI IS DA BUSINESS. Cousins are helping me spring-clean my bedroom at the mo. I have lived in my bed for the past three days, literally, only getting up to use the toilet/eat Koko Krunch/watch Ellen (only the choicest show in the world). THE MOTLEY CRUE RETURNS TOMORROW. HUZZAH!!

Dear Estella,

Remember, those spaces, the in-between period, just before rubberbands when you could stick a straw through and that became the sort of secret passageway for fluids? The holes that made you look really stupid yet you know better is to come, that eventually you will be left with the straightest set of teeth?



Finally, it will all be perfect.

you put me in a magic position

i love this song so much!!!
anyway this morning my sister reminded me... i am STILL a fan of youtube????
apparently it is undeleteable. OH, GROSS!!!

modern nature

1. i am sitting here, with 23 minutes of battery life left and holding in my pee. 

2. i watched the most beautiful movie today. paris je t'aime ONE MILLION STARS!! 

3. if i like the soundtrack, i will almost always love the movie. even instrumentals, like devotchka and yann tiersen. in summary bad music = forgettable movie

4. the facial feature that strikes me most is... the mouth. nice mouth = good looking person

5. i spent my tuesday with avril. we talked about all sorts of things and it was probably the honest i have ever been in months, the deepest i have been in a long long while. i like. 

6. realized i have grown numb to certain aspects of my life. frenz4eva = bullshit

7. it is nice sleeping opposite from how you are supposed to. i have been sleeping this other way for a year now

8. i am most irritated/frustrated when i have no inspiration, or when i make pieces which do not excite/please me. kind of like NOW!!

9. when i use my cassis rose body mist i feel happier, fluffier, prettier already hahaha

10. ok last thing: i just remembered how much fun i had helping arthi draw in a puttu on her forehead with a black marker during math lecture last week!

MARCH HOLS AWESOME

THE MOST EVIDENT UTENSIL IS NONE OTHER THAN A PENCIL!!!!!!!

if we can land a man on the moon

one month ago, when i still had blue thumbs. i have since scratched the nail polish out so clean nails! BUT. i miss social interaction. nowadays, there is an increasing distance.

BUT!!! we have been eating sushi so often. i actually now really really like kakiage. and handrolls make my life Complete. and, art. and laughing. sushi + art + laughing = estella has a good life 

PRADEEP S/O MURUTHI!! BLUE CORAL OREO

p.s. i hope birds don't piss on our portrait day drawings over the holidays

canopies and grapes

thursdays are ORRSUM. i am soaking up every bit of thursday nite!! today i had my first h1 chem test and i spent a good part of the week freaking out about it, don't know why. before i spoke to anyone i got that he or she to ask me an organic chem question first like "how do you differentiate alkenes from alcohols"???? or "KCN gives you what???" i got bee to test me the whole of math lecture today, and this morning as i was drinking chocolate nestum. and right now i think friends who don't take chem (i.e. gillian daniel/yonniboy) are actually familiar with halogenoalkanes the triiodomethane test and more things like that! i think gill is not bad at chem now. except she asked me why H2O(g) is possible and i was like, "steam" and at first she had difficulty pronouncing "triiodomethane" but later it was all good. i hope i do ok and make these people proud!!! hahaha. ok got to bathe asap, today ms lu showed us this sekret store in a sekret room in the ceramics room i NEVER knew existed in four years. i got trapped in cobweb. there were works from 1980 something. and today, gill toh and i hung up our portrait day drawings. we coloured in nail polish and got high from nail polish fumes!!!!! 

the men who live upstairs

i had to send my eastpak for washing bcos last thursday i sat on my banana (it was in the front pocket) and it got squished and the juice went all over my bag... nasty. but! just now i was wondering why there were chocolate bits stuck to my worksheets and guess what! crushed hello pandas at the bottom of my bag!! annoying! oh today i had fun e-boxing (e for estella hur hur hur) and sushi-feastin'! and today my banana was only a little slightly squashed so i actually managed to eat it. porridge was boring. every thing from that stall is halfway. not just horfun, gill! 

one thing i miss: postcard/sticker swapping. i also miss rollerblading.

ok ASIDE FROM that i am rlly happy!!! finally managed to get that sufjian stevens song i've always always wanted. and johnny flynn and emmy the great, those 2 didn't work out previously. sufjian stevens always makes me cry... but it is a good thing. ha ha. o recently, i have been into old stuff like yo la tango and david byrne.. he is old right? new favourite band is definitely someone still loves you boris yeltsin. 

OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG so my mum was using my facebook account happily looking at this and that and this and that and we were laughing and i just took the computer back... and HORROR OF HORRORS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

SHE MADE ME A FAN OF YOUTUBE

DJKSNCIJCNJNCNXCNJXNCSLNCKXNCKXNCONXOCNXC i am now a social........ loser........ 

thanks alot, mother! (she is still denying it.)

2 Chronicles 20:36

"Do not be afraid or discouraged because of this vast army. For the battle is not yours, but God's."

HI A LEVELZ

My Saviour, 

You never let me go. 

And in Your hands, my future's brighter.