Nehemiah 8:10

"The joy of the Lord is your strength."

This week, I found more reasons to Smile! 

Still waiting on His promises,

Estella

dear self

the idea is to stop having these silly expectations, stop dreaming, fix your eyes on permanent things- the ones that truly matter, have Faith, keep truckin' on

we are beautiful, we are doomed

AT PRESENT LIFE IS PRETTY AWFUL 

my chemistry issues are Ruining me

have been stoning excessively

losing faith in Humanity

every thing (mostly school) seems so........... meaningless.......... am not sure how long more i can take this........ help

i spend 3/4 of my allowance on film. so i am poor galz :(

my sister celebrated her 16th on friday. i used up two packs of film. 

WHAT IS WRONG WITH MY LIFE/ME

SRSLY!!!!!!!!!!?

the softest voice

i m hrdly a stdnt. bt i luv ths. i luv cmng hm t all my art and jst dng nthg bt ths all day lng i cld do ths forevr and ths is whn i m happiest, alwys ctch myslf smilng skrtly.... hummng t myslf and nt hvng a care in th wrld and sddnly evrythng makes snse, y knw? and in some strnge way i feel like i hve alrdy found myslf. i hve grwn. He is mst Amazng. like. WOW. tape art tmrrw! 

"we do not grow absolutely, chronologically. we grow sometimes in one dimension, and not in another; unevenly. we grow partially. we are relative. we are mature in one realm, childish in another. the past, present and future mingle and pull us backward, forward, or fix us in the present. we are made up of layers, cells, constellations."

-anais nin

hi-lighter ffun

"what kind of life do you dream of? 

you're allergic to love"

fab 14th

Valentine's Day

starting from 2330hrs at The Cheese Prata Shop followed by mad screaming and phonecalls to lydiasooh and us heading to WCP in the dark. the flying fox was PHWOARRRRR! 

LYDDIE I WILL MISS YOU.

sea of love

by golly gosh this was such an awesome week. awesome everything!!!!!

my only regret is not having a camera with me to document these events

but fret not, our fujifilm instax minis are here! they are hot pink and will take over the world....

ok maybe not. BUT. i cannot wait to snapsnapsnap. 

you know what is scary? i might actually be starting to really... like school 

deviled eggs! 

can&cut!

silver mirror!

kakiage!

...walking! (eh san rmb our walking club)

HAHAHA! 

love is no big truth

i have new songs! kings of convenience, cat power, ra ra riot. opening new music makes me happy. I HAVE SO MUCH ART TO DO. AND so little time. 

PHWOARR 

is my new favourite word.

guided by voices

"I never sleep. I've never slept at all. I've never had a dream.

All of that could be true."

i think like ugo rondinone i have always been a surrealist, secretly

Isaiah 21:14

"For i am the LORD your God,

who churns up the sea so that its waves roar-

the Almighty is his name.

I have put my words in your mouth and covered you with the shadow of my hand-

I who set the heavens in place, 

who laid the foundations of the earth,

and who say to Zion, "You are my people."

stars and crosses, reasoning for losses

i need to feel MOTIVATED! DRIVEN! HYPED UP!!! 4 LYFE

ok oh my my i am lusting after life-after-A's when the year has barely started and i am already sinking in this pool of....... homework debt, still can not do one probability question and oh, today i realzied i have been doing a part of my vectors all wrongzzz SAD. i could totally do with some excitement in my life right now, like a replay of last thursday, or actually embarking on that coffee bean hunt with xiangbucks to the sahara desert... i need mustafa really badly, or chinatown is fine too just now we drove past and i saw all the tang yuan shops cute ah peks sitting by the steps. there is this whole world out there that could be MINE. in ten months' time. ten. can? now i need to start bluffing myself that night is young and i should probably open my bag and start on stupid PCR. oh i came home and  ate a quarter mini cup of roe ha haha how yummy i googled it and it is called tobiko. 

the invisible invasion

estella stop neglecting your blades

i want to go shopping

and we exhale

and we roll our eyes

and we do these things in unison

and woe is me

and woe is you

and woe is us, together

it's flattering but really

hit the heartbrakes, baby, you're driving me crazy.

the size of matchsticks the memory was emotional

i want to finish my "lovers who uncover" piece. today! me and sir farthi chapatti we went on an adventure, involving photocopying cards, india, chcolate sundae and our 22 dollar cabfare. plus side of today was that i got to do many !spontaneous! things. i thrive on such situations.... analyzing jon from top-to-toe (hair every where. i mean it) and issuing beauty sekrets, five of us watching the hairdresser perform and mow through his hair. amazing. 

choco plunge!!! we mourned the loss of chix&co from our lives. but we concluded it is the gravy which we miss. i have not tried the new jap food

today i thought i had left my socks + phone at home but turns out it was only my phone...... so i was so happy (that i could wear socks to school. turns out it rolled underneath the car seat) 

there was an ugly side to the day. let's just say that there are questions which i ask myself every single day and i am finally ready to convert this nagging question into less of a regret. but no one truly understands when i say that chemistry is so foreign to me, chemistry is THE bane of my existence. it is beyond the valley of puke city it is like the Orange in my life and i need it removed foreverrrrrrrrr

something to do with my hands

- i love chocolate wafer rolls

- my entire family is addicted to nutrisoy barley: TRY IT. it is good

- post-its over organizers

- broad markers and copics over zigs and brushables (shocking)

- today was cca fair and all we did was sit at our sad little amphi booth and draw on recycled brown paper- the kind used to wrap chicken rice- but the people that signed up were all scholars any way

- we haven't had art all this week: WHERE are our art teachers???

- i like my wallet v much though it causes much controversy hahaha

- i don't understand why everyone uses dot product to find perpendicular. i am the only one using cross

we made up your mind for you

i need to stick to my new year resolutions!!!

2009 shall be smashin'

the clockwise witness

absence makes the heart grow fonder

fonder makes the absence longer........ 

o, how i miss our yusheng parties and cny merry making

sunday nights always leave me very disappointed in life

i want to go to little india again, soon

little india (y)inspires me